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"in brokeness, I could see, that this was your will for me..." :: Jeremy Camp

5.25.2004

Strong.

The temptations (I don't have a better word for it) around me are strong right now. Last year, after about six months of no sex, I gave it all up because of something stupid in my personal life that made me feel bad. Instead of turning to God -- I ran to my drug and destroyed the best six months of my life.

I think that's what's happening now. I've had a stupid day, so I'm more drawn to drown out this pain with sex. And it's only a little pain. It's not even a big deal. But I can feel the temptation growing. It's really been growing for several days, but still. I don't want this for myself. I don't want to give in. This isn't what I want.